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Just a minute ago, I was enthusiatic about writing down my last public entry for 2007. Well I think if I keep writing, I should really make this into a long post. Because 2007 has it's Ups and Downs and I need to make my Thank Yous to all who had been there for me, holding my hand in 2007. So sit back for a long word entry, and try to look out for your name. If I missed out anybody, I am really sorry.
Thank you for tolerating me throughout the five years of friendship and though we do not get along sometimes and the constant fights we had throughout the course of our friendship, I am glad at the end of the day, I still can lean back on you when I am tired and facing a breakdown. You were great five years ago, and still is. Thanks for going MI w me, eventhough it was like a faraway land for the both of us. You are my beautiful bestfriend and I love you til the end of time. Please remember to call me, oand I hope to end New Years with you. I am going to plan a wicked 18th birthday for you which is two weeks away! <3
Dear Nash aka Bitch,
Thank you for being such a great friend to me. You are like a male version of me 'cos our thoughts are so alike! Heh. You know, I know, can already! You are a great friend to drink w and have crazy memories I can tell my children in the future. I am glad you confide in me like how I confide in you. You hold my darkest secrets along w other few people in my life. Though we rarely meet up, I am glad you made the effort to sms and talk to me on the phone. Thanks for claming me down each time I am getting super upset over something small. Fuck it, I love you. With many more years to come, I am ending my 2007 w you. Looks like I am bringing you w me to 2008. My best guy friend ever. I love you to death! <3
Thank you for being in my poly life. I am glad I got you girls to hang around in school and also, (now more often) after school. You girls are great people individually and I am glad we got each other to fall back on. School will certainly suck balls without each and everyone of you. Boy, am I glad tt you girls are my clique. BFB Thank you for listening to my constant whinings about almost everything in my life. You are super lovely. Massie Thank you for always showing me concern and being sensitive when I am not feeling too good. Your words never fail to make sense and don't worry 2008 will be filled hot boys for us! IB Thank you for cheering up by making me depressed ALL the time. Haha, I am totally kidding. I know for the fact you always try to make me feel better. You are someone I can count on for being full of shit. I am going to loose weight also so you won't say I am fat. Haha. O thank you for the shopping trips I had w you. I still am dreaming of sweater, damnit! Haiya Thank you for always following me to places and being part of my life. Your words are golden 'cos you rarely speak. Heh. I love each and every one of you for being the Best clique in NYP. <3 <3 <3 <3 (one each!)
Dear MI Gang,
Thank you for making my life for the first three months esp the greatest to kick start my 2007. BFF, Bitch, MIBestfriend, Nat, Chuck, Woman, Fir, Raqin & Haidar. You nine people are absolutely Love, and if I didnt know any of you, my year will be broing shit, and I would have probably died of boredom and rotting in the library w no one crazy to keep me sane. We need a proper meet up as soon as Dax comes back. I love ALL of you very much. <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 (one each!)
I know we have not had a propor meet up, and I blame myself. But I promise you that 2008 will be different. I just need to thank all of you for being in my life. I miss you all like crazy and I am glad til today, my love for the Ccyanide has not fade, one bit. You guys are zee best esp from 2005&2006. I love you ALL truckloads. <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 (one each!)
Dear Fisherians of WP,
I doubt any of you read this, but thank you for accepting me in the family. You guys make my free time worthwhile. And though I dont say this very often, I love ALL of you, Old and new Fish. But I will be making my move pretty soon. But you guys are forever with me! <3 x countless!
I know things are pretty messed up and I am glad we talked things out about two days ago. However, let me start by telling you this. There was never a day I never miss you and the random outings we have. Ten years is pretty long and eventhough we weren't close friends til like two years ago, you were one of my bestfriends. You are still my BestBitchForever, and I dont think anyone can take your place. Although things are never going to be the same, I hope we still be friends and go out and have those random things we did for the past two years. I am sorry we only gym once this year (HAHA) and tuesdays are no longer the days we die die meet up. Sadly, we won't be celebrating the close bond we have on every Valentines Day (was looking foward for the Vday 2008). It was supposed to be our first and to celebrate our 11th year of friendship. I guess we will still be friends but it'a different. Get my drift? Just for the record, I will never let your ex lay a hand on you. And I didn't mean all those other shits I said about you. I am sorry if I was not being such a good friend. Your words are true. I need to change the person I am. Someone who thinks the world revolves around her and it must be her only. Thank you for being my bestfriend for two years, I dont know what I will do without you or next year. But I learnt tt good things dont come easy. I still love you BBF, even if I rarely show it. You are always there when I turn to you. You were fantastic! I hope one day, this wound will truely heal. Meanwhile I hope you are doing well, and you know where to find for me if you ever need me. Take good care of yourself BBF. xxoo Slut.
Dear Ex Girlfriend,
Seven months plus were truely amazing and today I am going to thank you for the little things you did for me through our relationship. Thank you for sending me home without fail, no matter how late it was. And I know tt sending me home everyday means $$$ for ezlink&cabfare and I thank you for wasting your $$ on me, just to send me home on time. I also want t thank you esp during the exam period and I was having some stress attack. You came down despite having an outing w your clique, just to see me for tt ten minutes and give me a hug to tell me it will be alright. Thank you for picking me up from home, work and school. Thank you for making sure I am well fed always. Thank you for making me your number one on your list. Thank you for showing me how to have faith and trust. Despite I am holding a heavy heart to let all of this go, I still love you. Maybe not the way I used to. But thank you for the amazing seven months I had w you. You were the best girlfriend I had, no doubt about tt. I know things are not easy for you, as it is for me, but you know I am always here. You know where to find for me. O ya, another thing. Thank you for standing by me, even if it means to be my punching bag when I am PMS-ing. No one can tolarate such shit I put upon you. You are still in my heart.
Thank you for showing a different side of me. I am leaving you behind, together with 2007. When the year ends, you will be someone entirely different to me. So thank you. < 3
Thank you for everything! I love you so damn much! <3
Thank you for always protecting me. You are still the number one person I love on this earth. I am sorry. <3
I love you both very much! Thank you for having me! <3 <3
Thank you for being there. Blood is thicker than water, you proved those words right! I love you superalot. Thank you for always saving me. <3
In 2007, I lost myself a couple of times, gained a few more scars, a couple of heartbreak, lost some important people in my world. I lost a girlfriend and a bestfriend. I lost my sanity. I lost so much at the end of the year though I gained alot through the year.
"Hold on tightly, let go lightly."
My new year's resolution is still in the air. I will post a private entry to let my friends know wht I aim to have in 2008. Thank you for taking time to read this.
I love you,